Victoria Beckham reflected on the moment she was weighed on TV during her Netflix docuseries — however the clip wasn’t included for a really specific reason.
“It was the one a part of the documentary that we were asked to not include, but you’ll be able to Google it and you’ll be able to see me literally getting up and standing,” Victoria, 51, said during her Wednesday, October 22, appearance on the “Call Her Daddy” podcast. “I mean, it was so humiliating.”
Six months after she gave birth to eldest son Brooklyn Beckham, the previous Spice Girls member appeared as a guest on British show TFI Friday. Victoria stood on a scale in front of the live audience.
She recalled feeling “very self-conscious” about your entire ordeal during Wednesday’s podcast.
“Back within the day, those things were acceptable,” Victoria added. “I suppose you understand, there may be that old style thought technique of how quick do you bounce back to your weight after having a baby.”
Along with Brooklyn, 26, Victoria and husband David Beckham share sons Romeo, 23, and Cruz, 20, and daughter Harper, 14.
It wasn’t just the TV show, either. Victoria recalled being “on the front page of a newspaper” days after giving birth to Brooklyn with “arrows pointing to each a part of my body and where I needed to lose the load.” She acknowledged that in today’s world this might never occur.
Victoria also detailed her experience with an eating disorder, which was revealed within the docuseries, released earlier this month.
“I’d struggled with my weight since I used to be quite young. Within the ‘90s, I remember, we didn’t know as much about food back then as we do now. It wasn’t a lot a conversation,” she recalled. “Everybody was obsessive about fat-free, fat-free, fat-free. I remember being terrified to eat any fat.”
She was “really mindful” of food while growing up, Victoria explained.
“I feel then going into the Spice Girls and having people speak about me a lot and my weight — as you said one minute I used to be Porky Posh after which I used to be Skinny Posh — it plays tricks with you,” she continued. “I didn’t know what I saw after I looked within the mirror. I had no idea. You lose all sense of reality and it’s so consuming. It’s so tiring, and it takes over. It really takes over.”
Victoria noted in her docuseries that she “never” talked about this publicly until now.
During Wednesday’s “Call Her Daddy” episode, Victoria explained how she told her daughter, Harper, about her past struggles.
“I talked to her because I hadn’t seen the ultimate edit until the premiere,” Victoria said, referring to her docuseries. “I used to be like, ‘Well at this point, if I come across as an ass, I’m an ass and I’m going and I’m gonna own it because I didn’t know I used to be within the hands of the editor, right. It’s what it’s.’ I believed that this may need been left in, because obviously I knew that I talked about it.”
Victoria “spent a little bit of time” discussing the subject with Harper so she could “understand” all of it.
“When you could have an eating disorder, it makes you miserable. It is unhappy. It’s lonely. It’s all consuming,” Victoria added. “I used to be present for a few years but not truly present. That’s really tough and you simply gotta speak about it.”
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