In her recent memoir, “This Far: My Story of Love, Loss and Embracing the Light,” the 36-year-old dancer and TV personality revealed that Boss left her saddled with a $1 million tax bill, largely attributable to what she describes as his “reckless” spending on drugs and weird art collections.
Allison Holker pushed back on the belief that she inherited wealth from her late husband, telling readers that “it’s a misconception” that she was financially secure after his death.
Article continues below commercial
Allison Holker Spills The Tea On Her ‘Devastating’ Financial Reality
“The truth is kind of different,” Holker wrote in her memoir, per Page Six. “He had given away substantial sums of cash to family and friends and spent recklessly on drugs and his weird art collections. The tax bill that he left me with for the yr he died was $1 million.”
Holker also noted that she and Boss kept separate bank accounts, which ultimately left her bearing the financial burden alone. “I had been under the impression that the arrangement was working just fantastic,” she wrote. “He managed his income, and I managed mine, and we divvied up the bills. Easy-peasy. Or so I believed.”
Article continues below commercial
Nevertheless, after his passing, paying off his tax bill completely depleted his accounts, forcing Holker to tackle an unexpected financial responsibility while grieving.
Article continues below commercial
Allison Holker Reflects On How The Financial Affairs Affected Her Grieving Process
Holker, who shared son Maddox, 8, and daughter Zaia, 5, with Boss, and 16-year-old Weslie, whom Boss adopted from Holker’s previous relationship, admitted that checking out their financial affairs temporarily distracted her from her grief. However it didn’t change the indisputable fact that she was left in a difficult position.
“If he had known how much of our hard-earned money would go to pay lawyers’ fees to scrub up the mess he left me with, wouldn’t it have made any difference?” she questioned in her memoir.
“I’d wish to imagine it might have,” she continued. “Stephen left me with double the work, double the noise, double the hardships, double the confusion, and half the household earnings.”
Article continues below commercial
Allison Holker Reflects On Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss’ Inner Struggles
“Looking back, I realize his two very different personalities were increasingly battling one another,” she revealed. “What if he felt secure being this one individual who could have different sorts of energies? You haven’t got to be a very different person and put them except for one another.”
Article continues below commercial
Holker Reveals Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss’ Hidden Struggles
Within the months leading as much as his tragic passing, Allison Holker began noticing subtle but concerning shifts in Stephen “tWitch” Boss’ behavior. He became more withdrawn, less focused on self-care, and was smoking more steadily.
Though he admitted to feeling low, Holker recalls that he was “very careful about his wording,” never fully revealing the depth of his pain, even to her.
“He was wrestling with loads inside himself, and he was attempting to self-medicate and deal with all those feelings because he didn’t wish to put it on anyone,” Holker shared in a recent interview with PEOPLE Magazine. “He loved everyone a lot,” she added, emphasizing his reluctance to burden those around him.
A Childhood Trauma tWitch Kept Hidden
Among the many heartbreaking revelations in her book, Holker shared that Boss had privately alluded to being sexually abused by a male figure during his childhood, something he carried silently throughout his life.
“He didn’t want other people to tackle his pain,” she said, reflecting on the emotional weight he bore alone.
While uncovering these painful truths initially left Holker feeling a deep sense of betrayal, time has given her a brand new perspective. Reading through Boss’ personal journals, revisiting the books he had read, and examining the passages he had highlighted offered her a clearer understanding of the inner battles he faced.
“It did have me feel a variety of empathy towards him and sadness for all of the pain that he was holding,” she admitted.
Article continues below commercial